DOC Pilot

My heart has broken before watching this scene when Raul says, "I'm
gonna go show Mom." Then it hits him. She's gone. My heart has cracked at
that scene over and over again...but never like this!!!

My Little Brother

Everyone, your continued thoughts and prayers for us
are sweet tidbits that we look forward to. Right now I'm
asking extra prayer for Ryan. For most of this time, he's
been pretty much okay. But lately, I think he's beginning
to feel the reality that Mom isn't here anymore and he
doesn't understand! He's only 3 and a 1/2! He's been
more open that he misses her, and says a lot, "I want my
mommy back." We try to explain it to him-or rather, Dad does, I
have such a hard time trying-, and he listens and repeats after us,
but he still doesn't get it. I don't know how to help him through
this and it all hurts!

I have a hard time talking about her in front of him-which
probably isn't helping-but I'm afraid of having a major breakdown
in front of him. I don't want to scare him by doing that.

 

 

 

 

And it's slightly effecting him physically too. I have this bad feeling that he

thinks Mom is going to come back for his birthday party in December! He hasn't

exactly said that, but we can tell. I don't know how to help my little brother

go through this when we are trying to get through it ourselves! Just please

keep praying. Sunday would've been Mom and Dad's 29th wedding

anniversary.

 

 

With losing Mom, we're not hosting our family Thanksgiving this year at our

house. I can't handle thinking of doing that. We ARE going to celebrate it, just

not be the main responsible party for it.

 

 

Christmas is what I'm dreading! We are already getting excited for it, for Ryan,

and planning to do our best to make it fun and special. But even so, Christmas

without Mom?! That just seems so painfully impossible, when I imagine Christmas

Day without her! Her not being there as we open presents and be together? How

is this even real?

 

 

Anyway, please keep praying. And thank you for listening to my troubles!

 

 

Love, Rebecca

 

 

Ryan and Mom-Spring 2017