and science was fun. Math? Ugh. That was the hardest thing
of all and most of the time it felt like the end was never in
sight! I had learned algebra before, but it was years ago
so I was very rusty, plus math has never, EVER been
my strongest subject. The basic math I had down, but
every time new, advanced information was introduced,
my mind became all scrambled.
After getting the results from my first math test. Didn't even make the score.
So that means, work, work, work. Practice, practice, practice. Extra, extra homework
wasn't the answer, that wasn't what I needed.
After I would do all of the required math homework and
the results were disastrous.
More math to do? More? And...more...
I prayed so hard, I had two tutors-at different times-, I tried and
tried and tried, but it was as if I couldn't retain what they showed me.
The above picture shows what my mindset was and how I felt:
Can't think! Can't think! I cannot think! They would ask me
a question regarding integers, and my brain would freeze. I actually did
get tension headaches quite a bit this summer. I'd have to answer, "I don't know,"
and they would say, "Yes, you do." I'd be like, "I can't do this!" Everyone told me,
"Yes, you can. You can do this." And I'd be: "No, I can't. It's not like I don't
want to, and it's not like I haven't tried, I CAN'T!!" There were days my mind
was saying, "Lord, I CANNOT do this! I just can't do it! I just can't!" It seemed
like no matter how hard I tried, I could not succeed. But my family told me
not to quit. I wanted to throw in the towel, but I knew that I'd regret it for
not seeing this through. When I finally started watching the PreAlgebra
videos Dad got for me, it made a tremendous difference!
My test last week. Before test time...
After test time.
God did help me through it, everyone supported me, and now it's over!